Alliemazing.

Confusion. POP tarts.. Dracula. Fabric. Fan. Toyota. Gun. Steps. Eye lashes. Purple. Throne.

Here I am, arms wide open.. heart wide open<3 Here I am God! Lord use me from the tips of my toes to the top of my head. Jesus! So I shout out your name, from the rooftops I proclaim that I am yours! All that I am, I place into your loving hands & I am yours!

It says in Psalm 28:6-7, Blessed be the Lord! For he has heard the voice of my pleas for mercy. The Lord is my stregnth & my shield; in him my heart trusts, & I am helped; my heart exults, & with my song, I give thanks to him.

I’ve been dealing with alot this week.. I sinned as most of us do.. but mine was a big one. Not just a little white lie. But something that I’ve had a hard time forgiving myself for. Even though I know God forgives me & loves me no matter what. I mean.. I didn’t even wanna go to church tonight. But God’s grace is soooo amazing & his voice leads us to what we need to be doing. I’m not realizing that the guilt I’m feeling is just the devil trying to bring me down. But I refuse to let him.. The only one who can effect how I feel is MY GOD.

I love MY GOD more than anything. It’s crazy how amazing he is to us when we need him the most. The word of God is just like a big blanket that wraps you up with love :)

So I’m just starting this because I’m just starting to really study my bible like I should. One person that I look up too is Robin Allen.. she’s a youth & care pastor at my church which is Free Life Worship Center in Sardis. She told me about how when she starts to study, she reads a Psalm before she really gets into it to just refresh her mind about how awesome God is & what he’s done for us.. So this morning, I get up & open my bible to a random Psalm which was 26:12 & it says “I have taken a stand & I will publicly praise the Lord”. (Psalm of David) That’s kind of what made me think to start using a blog. Even if only one person is impacted by this.. that’s one person more than before.. right? So I don’t have a certain pattern when I read my bible.. I open to random books. Or I’ll see someone’s “daily verse” & then go read where that was.

This morning, I had a random marker at Jeremiah 32:36.. The header of this section says, “A Promise of Restoration”.. Verse 37 caught my eye by saying, “I will surely bring my people back again from all the countries where I will scatter them in my fury. I will bring them back to this very city & let them live in peace & safety. (38) They will be my people & I will be their God. (39) & I will give them one heart & mind to worship me forever, for their own good & the good of all their decendants.”

That is so mind blowing to read that.. I mean, really read into that & understand what he’s saying. It’s amazing :)

He goes on to say, (40) ”& I will make an everlasting covenant with them, promising not to stop doing good for them. I will put a desire in their hearts to worship me, & they will never leave me. (41) I will rejoice in doing good to them & will faithfully & wholeheartedly replant them in this land. (42) Just as I have sent all these calamities upon them, so I will do all the good I have promised them. I, the Lord, have spoken!”

All this kind of makes me think of that song, It’s gonna be worth it… lol, I can’t remember who it’s by. But it’s awesome. I say that in my head all the time when things are going wrong, & my faith starts to fall. It helps! :)

I guess thats all for now. I may add to this/edit later.

I’m going to use this page to blog about my daily walk with my Jesus. Or when I’m reading my bible, just to “jot” stuff down that stands out to me :) If no one ever even reads this.. it’s ok. It’s also just for my personal note taking. <3